For about 2 or 3 years, a family has come to spend the holidays they have in town, in our house.
They have known me practically since I was super little, and I can’t imagine them separated from each other, and they have a son named Alex, who is about 3 years old at this time.
Do you remember Teodor? I talked about him a long time ago. The one who always asks me if my mother is a cannibal, the post has to sleep around here on the blog, not so far away.
He is Alex’s uncle.
How small is the world, babe. Xd.
And I am happy, because Alex frees me from my brother who is a year older than him.
I can be the lonely creature that I am without being judged, or well, I am still being judged. My family thinks that I don’t listen to them when I listen and I know almost everything there is to know about what they talk about me.
Yesterday I heard my father say, for example, in a tone that carried a lot of hatred, that I am always in my world.
And I don’t say anything to you for being a fucking perfectionist, so shut up and don’t complain xd. Oops, sorry.
With how proud I and my father are, if we get into a strong fight, none of the 2 or those close to us will come out of there alive. Yes, I won from him to lose patience quickly, but also his ability to be a hyper observer and attentive to anything that moves.
I don’t know if it happened to you that you love someone, but that you have a little rejection to the person very internalized. It happens to me with my father. Most of the people when you say to them "I love and hate x person at the same time" they think firstly of your partner if you have one, or a person in the love sphere. But it’s not always like that.
And it happens to me because it has 99% of the unbearable defects that I usually have, except for perfectionism.
Although if I think about it, I am a very perfectionist like him, but he is in all aspects and I only in language learning, writing, and audio editing.
In fact, for example, if you put me to speak in English, as I know that I don’t have a accent that could be called acceptable, usual and common, I get blocked. If I start to calculate, until now the people who have heard me speak English and don’t speak Romanian or are not my teacher, were very few. My memory doesn’t help me, but there are less than 10, and to give you an idea, this year only one person was (boo, I know there is a high probability that you read it) although I didn’t speak much.
But back to the main topic.
This Christmas they will come again. The husband of the family has his parents who live here, but from what I understand the house is quite small and they have a problem with general heat, and that affects Alex more than them.
Of course, they don’t spend the whole vacation here, because they will still visit other friends they have, last year for example they stayed like 3 nights in another house because they wanted to spend time with I don’t know who.
And here I’m going to be a bit of a bad person, because my uncle and his future wife, if she accepts, I hope so, they come here.
She has 2 daughters from her previous marriage. And they are the only ones I could consider friends who live here in my country.
Well, I have 2 other girls in the school that I could consider friends, yes, only 2 out of a total of more than 1000 people who are studying there but I am very selective at times. But I don’t talk so much with them.
Well, I hope that my parents’ friends find another house because I want to see how my uncle asks her to marry him. If not, the fight with my father that I told you about will come, because remember that my uncle, his girlfriend and his daughters are among my family favorites, I said it yesterday.
At my grandparents’ house my uncle could be with his girlfriend in case Alex’s parents come here anyway, but the girls don’t like it.
Come on, get ready for the 31st of this month or the 1st of next month, because you’re going to see me hysterical. XD.
And it is most likely.
Now seriously, I couldn’t hurt my father because logically he is my father and he has not done something to make me stop loving him, and it is very difficult for you to make me hate you after you earn my appreciation/affection/whatever, or you get it by default like him, but I’m going to get a little hysterical.
Although yes, last year my father’s friend told me that no I wasn’t going to be able to know 100% html until he comes back, he is a programmer. I look forward to show him that he was wrong xd
Make love and not war. But then don’t come to my house with your creations after love. Thanks xD
No to Islamaphobia! Damn it!
your accent is of you if i told my bf to stop talking in his lango cause of something stupid i wood be down sizing and ostracizing him and making him feel little from where he came from so ya not or never feel bad about your accent
Right, unfortunately.
Most of the people who judge by race, religion etc do so, mostly because they grew up in a field where the same is done, or they are very easily influenced people that if you insist a little on them that the fly has 4 legs, they’ll believe it.
Were the so-called Americans native inhabitants when they first arrived? They were migrants, no? But now we have this Trump spreading propaganda for anti-immigrant policies and then we also have Islamophobia thanks to the rise of extreme nationalism and far-right. I don’t intend to offend Trump or anyone but no one has the right to offend me or anyone either.
And explicitly or implicitly forcing others to have a certain, so-called native, accent, or implying that certain accents or dialects are superior or inferior to certain others, are defined as imperialism.
Do forgive my selfishness, however I personally do not want you to have a so called common English accent.
It kills the authenticity, it makes you sound like millions of people who are ashamed for where they come from.
I also have a strong temperament, so I hope you unerstad that my intentions of writing this are 100 percent positive 😛